What’s left?

If I step away from what could be, what should be, and what must be, what’s left?

Lately I’ve been asking myself this a lot as a contemplation. How would I function minute to minute without all the drama and wasted energy that comes with a separate self, that social and cultural ego construct? The separate self that’s always seeking attention, status, permission, and approval from outside it’s own experiences? The self that never quite meets with it’s own approval so substitutes a search for approval outside itself?

Perhaps, because of a few thousand years of social conditioning, I may never know. But, I do think it’s worth the effort of seeking out and recognizing the amount of anxiety, sadness, fear, and loneliness that rises when I constantly seek reassurance about my status from others. When in reality I am the only one who can possibly know my own experience, the one that rises when I pay attention to my life from exactly where the body is breathing.

I don’t have answers or solutions, but I am suspecting that the journey to find freedom from social conditioning is, in itself, a small freedom. I am incredibly OK almost all the time. No drama’s or emergency’s, just life unfolding in it’s own unfathomable and mysterious way.

My experience says keep seeking and finding out, question everything, and keep peeling back the layers.

The weather is beautiful in Michigan this weekend. Take care of you outside if you can!

Bryan Wagner

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    1. Dear Ananda,
      I agree with you about Bryan’s “deeply soulful contemplation”. Thank you. What an unusual name if you have! I wonder whether it is a variant of “Amanda”.

      Dear Bryan,
      I am grateful to you for your introspection and wisdom. In addition, your current post reminds me of your post entitled “The Tao of Social Conditioning”, in which you stated as follows:

      When we find that story repeating itself over and over and wondering why the universe is working against us, it helps to take time to contemplate the process, not the people, but the personal processes that are apparent. The best news is you get to take a new direction and make changes. That’s so much eas[i]er than attempting to change people! And you get to apply compassion to yourself, conditioned behavior is never a personal fault, it can be noticed, and changed. It’s worth the focused attention to see the process and not the content.

      In order to distance ourselves from social conditioning and status anxiety, we can involve ourselves in artistic expressions or aesthetic affairs. For example, we can observe Nature and then pay homage in creating works or crafts as a result of being inspired. In that regard, did you have a chance or take the opportunity to observe and photograph the April super pink moon, which is the very first super moon of 2021 on the 26th or 27th? What a night it was to look upon the full moon shining upon the landscape in all its grandeur, and to reflect deeply in the moment!

      Being a poet, artist and a lover of moon myself, I would like to entertain, inspire and resonate with you through my most animation-intensive post presented to you as a courtesy of my dramatic attempt to bring the Full Moon alive, so to speak, in the form of Music Animation with Dynamic Visualization presented in high definition and imbued with a scintillating full moon surrounded by eye-catching astronomical phenomena and stellar activities!

      The post also contains twelve poetic stanzas constituting my rhyming poem entitled “If My Name Were Moon Tonight…“.

      This post has not only been extended but has also been improved from top to bottom. It is now covered in animations throughout.

      In order to see all of the animations, please make sure that you view the post on my blog and not via the WordPress Reader. Please enjoy to your heart’s content the mixed-media offering of “If My Name Were Moon Tonight…” and its beautifully rendered Music Animation with Dynamic Visualization on the big high-resolution screen of your desktop or laptop computer. Switch the video playback to full-screen mode. The animation starts calmly and will gradually climax.

      There is also the opportunity to savour my own rendition of “Clair de Lune” recorded on the organ.

      The direct link to the post is https://soundeagle.wordpress.com/2020/10/10/if-my-name-were-moon-tonight-with-clair-de-lune/

      I am very curious about what you think and look forward to receiving your feedback there.

      May you and Ananda find the rest of 2021 very much to your liking and highly conducive to your writing, reading, thinking and composing whatever posts that take your intellectual fancy or show off your imaginative flight, with or without the power and allure of the Moon!

      Yours sincerely,

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      1. Thank you so much my friend for the kind words and direction. I will experience your art and look forward to both the experience and self expressing what rises.
        I value your work, insights, and a most active sense of curiosity. Thank you for adding to my life.

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      2. Dear Bryan,

        You are very welcome. I look forward to reading your feedback, comment or critique submitted to my said post after you have had a chance to visit and experience my work. Thank you in anticipation.

        May you have a lovely weekend!


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