Lately I’ve been thinking about how much of my life was spent in the attempt to gain attention from my fellow humans. It’s a fine line between wanting to express oneself truthfully and that utter yearning that is supported by a separate egoic self in need of attention. That whole thing about being seen and noticed. That, “Hey, look at me and what I can do and see what I have.”
Those decades I was in the music industry were very much about being an artist, writing songs, achieving some kind of audience and following. But, for me, more of it was about ego and being the center of attention, and financial success. So what does one do when the need to self express is also a need to gain attention? How does anyone balance the two, that egoic and yet very expressionist state?
For me as a writer and blogger, it’s important to stay focused and involved in the message. Other dynamics fall into place or they won’t and that’s a matter of balancing in life. But if the message that you are self expressing is carried by a passion about the message, at the end of your day, regardless if you’re popular or unknown, you will be able to look at what you do with a sense of completion and love. Staying with the message will sustain you long after the seeking of fame, fortune, and attention fades.
Perhaps you don’t have thousands of followers on a blog, perhaps your not a famous artist, or that book isn’t selling, or your life isn’t what you would like it to be right now. But, if you are truly passionate and have love for message in your labors, your work will always have meaning and will project that meaning. The passion for your work will ignite more passion. Embracing and experiencing that is like embracing the burning sun of your own truth. I can’t think of much that holds more meaning than that.
Take care of you and all you love,