A friend of mine in Kenya was talking about being compressed and needed to express, but she somehow feared taking what was in her heart and exposing it. My encouragement was self expression isn’t about anyone but the expression. In some ways it’s not even about the person expressing. What self expression does is release and diffuse feelings. There is no guarantee that anything will feel different, but the feelings expand and seem to yield a little. So, in making a point she dared, I prefer the word encouraged, me to self express about something painful. I write verse and poetry for release, so I sat down and this appeared. I never post poetry so bear with me. I hope this sings a little.
SPINNING
It was the rarest of bleeding days,
so seldom the jigsaw core fragments,
each piece borrowing parts of the never enough me.
Spinning adrift with hard sadness and softest anger, a touch of insanity.
A shifting sheathing of tears.
A disconnected pairing.
Trying hard not to smell the stench of third-party opinion,
those exquisitely blind fools.
Advice freely given by another, an idiotβs ego.
What about this?
What about that?
Facing what is, alone, is not a choice.
Existing by default is one way, falling and not clinging, two into one or so.
Sad, alone, and sovereign.
Choking on the bitter of sweet.
On to the somewhere else, the phone dies permanently dead.
Tic tocks sang the ever spinning clock, ticking of tock.
From “Songs to be Sung Naked and Alone.” Artwork is Autodesk/Corel: “Final Dance of Everything”
Allan Watts talked about dancing to dance, not to get across the dance floor. I like that. Be well and take care of you.
Bryan Wagner
The synchronicity of your post is awesome with what I feel guided to write today. This week I have felt creative nudges and was happy to express them. I agree, it’s just about expressing, nothing more. No judgements. That’s what 2020 has been for me 100%ππ π
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Yes!!! I get so inspired in reading others ideas and thoughts. Expressing is expressing is expressing. Take care of you.
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Brilliant. Amber β€
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Hi Amber. I went to your blog and very much like what you write but also the essence of you as a human exploring being human. I identify so much with that. Looking forward to your postings! Be well my friend.
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Hey, thank you so much. That is wonderful to hear. I love the words you use above about exploring what it means to be human! Looking forward to your postings also!
Best wishes, Amber β€π
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We fear expressing out certain things because we worry what other’s reception will be. Sometimes because we fear what truth it may reveal to us about ourselves. One sure way to overcome the fear is to go ahead and express it out. What comes out, good or bad, would still be a great lesson.
I love the artwork and your poem is beautifully written. Great that you took the encouragement and shared a poem of yours with us. β€οΈβπΏ
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Thank you so much for that. I am encouraged. Big smile.
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